I'm sad this moment

I was hoping I can get a man I can trust and can have left life to living with. It's the person I can completely trust. My best friend.
But why it's so hard. Always got problem. The way of my life,still moving. No job this moment,no one can hold in the night. It's the life and that's not mean I'm negative.
I should start to do something.

No one say 'I'm sad,I'm lonely',only do more thing to keep the distance.